I read a book several months back called How to Make your Kids Mind without Losing Yours. A friend of mine loaned it to me. About halfway thru the book there was a chapter on yo-yo parenting. As I read the paragraphs I knew that was me to a tee. One day I am super strict. The next day I let everything slide. Then the next I am somewhere in between. It all depends on my mood, what I have been doing, how much pressure I am under, and whether I have been reading my bible and spending quiet time in prayer, etc, etc. Sometimes I wonder if my kids think they are living with the Three Faces of Eve.
Yo-yo is a term that could apply to almost every area of my life. Consistency eludes me. Sometimes I am just so faithful when it comes to spending my free time reading the bible and I get up early and do my prayer time and I feel great... but then for no apparent reason I fall away and I realize that it has been days since I have really prayed. I generally say little prayers all thru the day, but I am talking about carving out quiet time to meditate on God's word and really seek Him.
The same applies to my marriage. I go for long period of time where my husband is on my priority list where he should be and then...bam... things get busy or hectic and I realized that its been days since I have given him a decent hug and kiss or given him any affection at all. I just get so wrapped up in the minute to minute caretaking of kids and the home that I forget he is even there.
It seems like in every area of my life I run hot and cold. I really want to be more consistent. I know that there isn't a magic potion or spell for consistency. I have a sneaking suspicion that like everything in life it requires that I be more aware and not just living in the moment and that I do the work to accompliish it.
Sometimes I look at all the work I have to do and feel so overwhelmed. But then I come to my senses and realize that all I have to do is turn them over to God and then be willing to follow His direction. And instead of feeling overwhelmed I feel excited to see how He will work in my life. I know how far He has already brought me and I know that He is committed to finish the work that He has started in me.
About Me
- Mountaingirl
- I am happily married to "Mr. Clean" and I am a stay at home mom that rarely gets to stay at home these days. I have two sweet, rambunctious boys (a 5 yo aka "the Banimal" and an 3 yo old aka "pteradactyl boy") I am confused and bewildered most days. I'd like to blame it on my two small kids, but I have always been fairly confused and bewildered. I work each day to try to balance my relationship with the Lord, my family, and the bazillions of other obligations that I some how get myself roped into. When it all gets to be too much I just lock myself in the bathroom and read a few pages of a good book...and hope that no one notices that I am gone. ****** Every night I turn my troubles over to God.... He's gonna be up all night anyway.--Donald J Morgan******
1 comment:
Oh yes, I know exactly where you are at. I can so identify with this post. I was thinking earlier today that when I get home I am going to just sit down in a lawn chair and stop, then get things back in their right order and start again, only slower this time.
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