Wow... I just have to take a little time to say what a wonderful and mighty and majestic and loving God we serve.

I became a Christian at the age of thirteen and then after about a year I began to backslide. I spent the next 14 yrs rebelling against God. I have often wondered now that I have a close relationship with God again why I let Him go in the first place. The only answer that I can come up with is that I really didn't know Him. I didn't spend time in His word and in prayer. And slowly I began to turn from Him. It wasn't a radical decision. It was a thousand little compromises that I made on a daily basis that didn't seem to be a "big deal" at the time.

I am so thankful that God remains faithful to us even when we aren't faithful to Him. And I am so thankful that God allowed my bad decisions and their consequences to catch up with me in a way that got my attention and brought me back to Him.

The love I have for Him and the appreciation that I have for the sacrifice that He made so that I can have a relationship with Him is so much more than it could have ever been if I hadn't gone thru all the experiences that I did. I can see how God is taking my mistakes and turning them into wonderful oppertunities for me to minister to others. Only a sovereign God could turn negatives into positives.

I feel like I have discovered my first love.. like it talks about in Revelations. I was like the church at Ephesus. I left my first love, Jesus Christ. And now I have had to repent and do my first works (Rev 4:4-5). I am so thankful that I have made it back to this place. I haven't felt this energized and excited in years. I can see that God is changing me daily and I am so excited to see what comes next.

I have been reading the 107th Psalm alot lately.... it means so much to me. It describes exactly what I have been thru....

Those who sat in darkness and in the shadow of death,
Bound in affliction and irons--
Because they rebelled against the words of God,
and despised the counsel of the Most High,
Therefore He brought down there hearts with labor,
They fell down and there was none to help.
Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble,
And He saved them from their distresses.
He brought them out of the darkness and the shadow of death,
And He broke their chains in pieces.
Oh that men woud give thanks to the Lord for his goodness.

...... Fools because of their transgression,
and because of their iniquities were afflicted....

Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble.
And He saved them out of their distresses,
He sent His word and healed them,
And delivered them from their destructions.
Oh, that men would give thanks to the Lord for His goodness.
Psalms 107:10-21


GOD IS GOOD... ALL THE TIME!!!
AND ALL THE TIME .... GOD IS GOOD!!!!