Tuesday, March 07, 2006

the wonder of it all

I found this site and I thought that the pictures and the message were beautiful. So take a break and kick back and relax for a few minutes and take a look. I bet you'll feel a little more centered and much more relaxed.

Enjoy.
wonderofitall.com

Monday, March 06, 2006

Gee, I feel old.

There is nothing like talking to teenager to make you feel old. I keep in touch with one of my cousin's daughters who is 16. And when I talk to her on the phone or email her sometimes I have these horrific realizations. I guess for the most part I don't really think of myself as any age in particular. But a part of me still feels like I did when I was a teenager. But when I talk to her I realize just how 'not a teenager' I am.

Its funny I can remember before my grandmother passed away she told me that she looked into the mirror everyday and thought 'who is this old woman staring back at me.' She said in her mind she still felt like she did in her late teens to early twenties. She said that her outsides didn't match how she felt inside. I guess I am starting to realize some of what she meant.

Friday, March 03, 2006

Normal day

Normal day...
Let me be aware of the treasure you are.
Let me learn from you, love you, bless you before you depart.
Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow.
Let me hold you while I may,
For it may not always be so.
One day I shall want more than all the world your return.

Mary Jean Iron

Sometimes I get caught up in looking ahead too much and not just enjoying where I am. This quote helps me to remember to just savor the moment. I guess the monotony of day to day makes me wish sometimes that I had some excitement. Changing diapers and picking up toys seems kind of boring day after day. But I just remind myself that when the boys are grown and gone that I will miss these uneventful days that we spent playing in the living room floor. These are 'the good ole days.'
To be yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else-- means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.

EE Cummings

A family pet

Well, it has taken me almost a full year to talk myself into it. But I am ready for a family pet. We are going to take it in baby steps. The Banimal has wanted a fish since I was pregnant with Pteradactyl boy. But I kept putting him off, because I knew how crazy life would be with a new baby in the family. But now Pteradactyl boy is almost a year old and I think we could handle the responsibility of a fish.

I have decided to get a Beta fish. I figure as low maintenance as they are surely we can keep the little sucker alive. And should tragedy befall our new pet, there are a whole bunch more that look just like him at Walmart for a couple of dollars. Maybe if this goes well I might buy one of the bigger tanks. But right now we will just see how it goes with the Beta.

This is so funny because in my former life....pre-Mr Clean and kids. I was a huge animal person. I had an 80 lb dog that lived in the house with me. I always had birds and dogs and cats. I had a horse for several years as well. But for the last five years I have been pet free and I really have enjoyed it. After having two kids so close together the thought of a dog and having to take care of it seems like alot of work. I figure I have a few more years before the dog thing comes up. WHew...